I wrote this last summer and it still holds true. With a couple alterations, I am posting this so my loved ones can see it and maybe even become inspired.

Laughing at shadows
By Corey Thibodeaux

I’m worried.

I’m worried that I’ll have a bad hair day. That I’ll run out of gas. That I’ll stub my toe.

I’m scared.

I’m scared of getting hit by a car. Of my lack of income. Of the impending thunderstorm.

I’m frightened.

I’m frightened of failing everyone. Of not finding a job. Of becoming heartless.

I’m terrified.

I’m terrified that I’ve lost too many friends. Of the Future. Of dying before I’m done here.

I’m glad.

I’m glad that I have a clean load of laundry. That my complexion is clean. That my milk is not spoiled.

I’m happy.

I’m happy that I can sing and dance without being judged. That the Mavericks are on the verge of a championship. That I am healthy.

I’m ecstatic.

I’m ecstatic about having been able to cover Kansas basketball. That I still believe in love. That I don’t have to struggle to live on a daily basis.

I’m blessed.

I’m blessed that  I can wake up everyday and find a reason to smile. That I know the greatest humans (and dog) in the world. That I believe in myself and the gifts given to me.

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All these happen through my head at some point. But at the end of the day, I only think about one thing: the sun is somewhere, still shining.

Most of the time, that’s enough.

What caused your smile today?

-Corey